feelings of turning 19...

a short post to tell my feelings of turning 19 tmr...i don wish to admit it..but its a fact =.= haha..though i dont look like 19 yo~~:P

another yr has passed. many things happen thruout the past year..i'm coming to the 2nd sem of year 2. i guess i did improve on my nursing skills and gained a lot of valuable knowledge:) let me share my happiest thing- i've grown much spiritually!!i believe so:) physically as well...of cos din put on weight much..but..maybe prettier??hahah..mentally..surely more matured^^
saddest thing is- i realise i've been a fool for the past 4 years..until recently i gave this relationship up..i felt so relieved..it can be a good news as well..hehe~

so how i feel?
i'm in the last year before becoming 20..no more 10+...T.T..a bit sad..but this shows that God blessed me thru these 18 years of my life..normal people will feel excited about their bday rite..same goes for me..but, i'm quite dissapointed this year..bcos maybe i wont be able to celebrate with my sec sch buddies..miss them so much~~
i don wish to celebrate with a large grp of people either..cos i know the attention will not be on me..i hv to be selfish on this big occassion for me..:P

most importantly--i would like to celebrate it with my dearest parents. i believe no one on this earth will love me as much as they do^^ thank them for raising me up to be who i am today!!
Thank God for transforming my life too~~

HapPy BirThdAy to me...i am 18 going on 19 :)