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long long journey...

2010-09-03T20:49:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i posted anything here..having lots of time for now..gonna write something on my past 4 months..

its quite a long journey for me to come to the end of my poly days..nearly 3 years. time flies actually..just miss NP suddenly..it will be a part of my wonderful memory! not an ez road to come thus far..challenges and times when i feel real depress of my performance, thought of giving up..keep doubting myself whether i'll turn out to be an efficient nurse. All i can say is..i have a great God who always guide me thru and lift me up during those times. I believe he place me in nursing for a purpose:)

tough road ahead too..but with Him, what do i fear? XD had my last exam paper in poly today. felt gud to be free again before attachment is here..

busy days filled my last 4 months..and 6 more months down the road before im finally graduated as STAFF NURSE! ^^ one major change i think will be my spiritual life. knowing the importance of walking close wif God helped me to challenge myself to do quiet time & 15mins prayer every morning to grow in spiritual maturity:)

God heard my prayer. recently church camp theme talk was on "Knowing God, knowing self". inspired and encouraged to cont doing what i do and even more to it..meditating on God's word. its a gud way to dwell and digest God's word deeper..gonna practice it..(quite hard for me) lol..

Its amazing to realise the closeness we have with people around us and God once we truly experience the love for one another! God's love is unfailing^^

p.s. hope im more hardworking to post more even tho i know max only 2 people will read this...LOL

My first video =)

2010-05-17T21:21:00.008+08:00

First Love- jaspinky

have been practising this song for months..

guess i've improved a lot~~

first love reminds me of God's love to me.. which..represents my blog name ^^

flood in comments after listening =) good or bad its fine~

thanks ....

parents as good role models nowadays?

2010-05-17T18:28:00.007+08:00

As i was walking back home today, there was this father and son walked past me..the little boy was only around 5 yrs old. The only thing that caught my attention was the father had a cigarette in his hand..smoking away! this may be a normal sight, but i felt so sad for this boy.. even walking past smokers outside my school or anywhere else, the smell is so terrible..i would either avoid them or quickly walk past them..

yet this boy has been exposed to this smell..or observing his dad smoking since he was younger. He may not know what is this thing that his dad is holding all the while..but children at this age are good at imitating whatever they see people around them do. as he grows up, he may just gif it a try out of curiosity..saying "Dad, smoking is worth trying! It's so cool to smoke in front of my frens.. oh dad, thx for the cigarette!".. and the worse part is..the dad will always tell their children " You must never touch a cigarette! smoking is bad, bad..very bad for ur health!!"??

these innocent children don't know the consequences of being a second-hand smoker..but i believe the parents know this fact. I've wondered why they are the ones smoking and cause more harm to us 2nd hand smokers..so i found out that there's a filter on the cigarette when they smoke..but as for 2nd hand smokers..we directly inhale the harmful smoke they breathed out..

Parents are the ones who are in closest contact with the child ever since their birth day..to me, smoking is something they should avoid infront of their children..or even for the sake of their children..the little angels in their life..the love for them..

to quit smoking..

thoughts on this memorable day

2010-04-01T17:44:00.004+08:00

Good friday and Easter sunday are 2 important days for Catholics & Christians..Jesus died n rose again..now what is main purpose for remembering good friday n celebrating Easter?i believe we grieve and reflect on what Jesus did for us on this day..it's also known as the day of repentance. knowing He suffered & died for our sins..reminds us the sacrificial love He gave us...i'm sure it pains our heart to see what He went thru as portrayed in the movie Passion of the Christ..but little did i know the philippinos does self-flagellation every good friday..which is their way of showing their repentance of sins..hmm...this made me wonder why nobody stopped this until i saw an article bout it today

http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/lifestyle/03/22/10/bishop-avoid-flagellation-crucifixion-during-holy-week

so thankfully The Roman Catholic Church are rejecting these practices & bishops actually believes that repentance and self-renewal are the true expressions of Christian faith..not self-flagellation.

aft grieving bout Jesus's death..here comes Easter when we celebrate His resurrection =) Its a joyous day & we know He lives in us..i still rmb when i was 5 yrs old..attending children's hour in main church, we used to make crafts using eggs..designing, colouring..making it so beautiful. i only knw that it represents new life..but nvr question y my Easter is all about eggs??lol..

it will be a different Easter for me this yr as i'll b spending my easter in Philippines ^^

--i'll miss the celebration going on in my church too~--

recent happenings

2010-03-25T11:40:00.003+08:00

hmm..it's been quite long again since i last updated..
aft struggling thru 3 papers..its nt the end of my 4th sem till i've completed my 3 weeks attachment. It was a different experience because for once my attitude of going for attachment changed..been thinking y my passion for nursing seem to be decreasing..?isit due to stress or think i'm nt up for it..
and..finally i realise i've not reli been enjoying what i'm doing all this while..including going for attachments..its only like a task to complete and get gud grade for it.
so..i decided to make sure i enjoy n treasure everyday of attachment to keep my passion going!
i'm just full of energy n joy aft praying each morning b4 i left for work/attachment..(i'll use work cos it's a shorter word :P) And it worked!learning new things everyday with great sense of accomplishment..awesome frenship wif patients & nurses..gud teamwork wif frens..which i've nvr experience b4 (:

my exam grades was released on the last day of my work~was reluctant to check the sms they sent when my frens were all checking it..i donwan it to affect my mood to work..guess i'll jz wait till my shift ends then i'll take a look at it..but..i waited till 12+ i couldnt help it but to check..since all my frens started asking me bout it~ to my suprise..Thank God ^^ *never go wrong if we depend on God's strength & not on our own* He does amazing things in our life (:

Aft Sun worship tis week, i'm touched by the HS thru the songs we sang..made me realise tis God i serve is so Majestic and Almighty..so powerful..tat we fear God, and at the same time he is so loving, merciful just like a dear friend to us..no matter what happens..i knw He is there for me. This is the assurance i can find in no one else but Him..i find it so amazing & i'm so proud to be called His child :)

--nxt update will come soon--
God bless!!

be thankful =)

2010-01-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

lately i've been facing lots of stress with my sch work n etc...
been feeling quite down and i dont see why i should remain cheerful and smile~
This is the amazing thing bout being a child of God..he always reminds me to be joyful thru songs, people around me and bible verses :)

James 1:2 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds..."
it isnt ez..but it is possible to remain joyful bcos the joy of the Lord is our strength..
agree??

while i was waiting for bus yday, I kept on sighing..*haizz..* "it's goin to be another tired day of sch.." totally no motivation..and while i was looking at the people boarding and alighting fr the bus..God showed me this girl who was alighting fr the bus, she looked normal to me..but i realised she had a prosthetic leg..with smile on her face..didn't bother how others may look at her. i see perseverance in her :)

Though i may feel tired and complain after walking long distance..shouldn't i be thankful that i have legs to walk?
I thank God for blessing me with voice to praise Him even though i have sore throat~
Why should i even grumble when i have lots of work to do? it seems like its never ending..but my God is a merciful God..I'm sure he'll guide me thru in evrything i do :) Thank God for His unfailing love!

Be thankful and content ^^ constantly remind ourselves to keep the spirit of joy in us~

Song by Katinas-Thank you

Just a little while longer i wanna pray can't get you off my mind so i came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as i do forget every need that you have met
Oh Thank you Lord i know You're showing me
You are there when i am out and down You're holding me Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

chorus:
here i am with all i am raised my hands to worship you
i wanna say thank you oh thank you
for everything for who you are
You cover me You touch my heart i wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay but instead You took my place
My Jesus words can't explain
Even though i dont deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed me mercy

*Thank You Lord !!

J.LaMeness

2010-01-14T18:30:00.002+08:00

Lame joke of the day~

A: Is he a man?
B: Of course HE is a man..HE can't be a woman..
A: hmm..but HE can be a boy right?

Potato: Eggy, what will I look like if i go on a diet?
Eggy: A skinny potato??
Potato: no no..
Eggy: Thin potato??
Potato: seriously, u're dumb! Of course i'll look like french fries...

what is the difference between McD, KFC, A&W and BK?
--- their alphabets ---

are there many LOL in ur mind now??
u need more LOL --- cause u Lack Of Laughter :P

stay tune for more~

Christmas season is here~~!!!!

2009-12-22T07:42:00.004+08:00

counting down 3 more days to Christmas!! i've always look forward to this special day~~ 25th Dec..its the season in which i receive lots n lots of presents..*even more than what i get for my bday*. There will be christmas parties..celebration, my house will be decorated with all kinds of stuff, which made my house filled with christmas atmosphere..

i dont believe in santa claus tho..but i would love to act as one miss claus this yr~giving lots of presents to children & friends bcos its a joyous ocassion! ^^

have u all wonder what is the true meaning of christmas?why we celebrate christmas?is it all bcos of presents..beautiful lightings in shopping malls *especially those in sg*, or all bcos of Santa? nonono...!! it is all bcos of Jesus :) Christmas is his bday, like all of us hv our own bday..we celebrate his birth into this world..(the birth of Hope)..

my church hebron had a christmas party organised by the youths last sat, 19th. I was clueless of what are we gonna do on tat nite until i am a part of it. it was the first time we had this party done mostly by these young leaders..amazingly, by God's annointing..each of them showed their potential. many of us brought our non-christian friends to this party..hoping that they will come to realise and know this true God we serve..of cos we want them to hv fun together as well..haha

i believe it was a great turnout. My friend who went thought it was awesome too! wow~

the upcoming events will be carolling in blocks and a few homes. I'm glad i'm part of the carolling team..i love to go house to house and bring joy to these people..every yr without fail :) I always imagine myself in western country, wearing coats..scarf, gloves and boots..singing carols to each family with snow falling on my face..haha..

i realised we could sing carols wherever we are..as long as there is a grp of people..jz a few days ago, i heard people singing carols under my block(hdb flat)..when i look out of the window, i saw a grp of people was singing while some are bbq-ing at the bbq pit..their voice was so loud till i can hear from the 10th floor~~wow!

i guess its the same principle as we can worship God wherever we go ^^

it's gonna be a tough week ahead..but it will not stop me from celebrating christmas with a heart full of joy and peace!!

ho ho ho~~Merry Christmas!

i am weak, but You made me strong

2009-11-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

how ironic is it that i was so full of strength and spirit-filled yday in church and today..i seem to be a different person..
irritated easily, gloomy and lethargic~
i felt so terrible when i quiet down myself to study..as if there's a burden in my heart. I cant focus at all, something seems to be distracting me..

I decided to not study..shut down everything that is interrupting me-no facebook, msn..i turn to Him..prayed and played songs to worship Him..i just wanna focus on Him... i felt great after i'm refreshed once again..filled with peace, joy and love~

we may fall easily on this rocky road..but i've learned to turn to Him and He will pick us up to cont the journey again:)
i'd like to share tis song--it made me rediscover life is meaningless without Him n rededicated my life to Him..

~encountered another encouragement by God~
I surrendered All...have you?

God bless!

[my God is an aWesoMe God]

2009-11-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

first thing first---woohoo~thank God!! terima kasih Yesus!! 感谢主!! Danke schon Jesus!! ....
my heart is full of gratitude yday after i passed the test that i feared most..
i've put in a lot effort to practice n practice the nursing skills which i will be tested, many extra hours staying bk in school just to practice till no mistake~~it was really very tough..
wonder what nursing skills??in general, it's injection thru different route, ecg n serving medication..

few days before the test, i was reading the book of Psalms.."He will turn my darkness to light, who can be against me?" i know i can trust in Him..each day..He gave me encouragement by reading His word^^besides Him, my mum reminded me of a verse--"I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me"..wow~truly great to hv parents who are always so supportive!

I was nervous of cos on the actual day, so i keep on praying, praying...for good, nice teacher to test me...then. i saw my ex-teacher walking into the room. i knew she was going to be the one assessing me..she is famous for being strict and sarcastic~nvm..i'll just do my best and leave it to God..

---test----made mistake----test----oops,another mistake----some sarcastic remarks---pass!!
(the test process in short)

although i did a few mistakes, which is normal..as human being..but overall was pretty smooth~
(: It wont go wrong if our faith is strong--hmm..it rhymes huh?haha..

thanks for the prayers n blessings showered upon me!!
indeed my God is AweSomE~~

-- Pulau Ubin --

2009-10-13T15:47:00.006+08:00

i went for a class outing to Pulau Ubin:)
was a bit reluctant to go at first cos i thought it'll be boring..but since it's holiday, might as well go and experience how's the life of ppl there:)

10 of us arrived there at 10am..first thing we did was to rent bicycles. sad to say..i cant ride bicycle though i reli wan to learn badly...who wants to tEaCh me??? hahaha..anyway, thx to my dear fren..we chose the double seater bike. so..i can experience riding it:) It was quite fun..we cycled around the whole Pulau Ubin...until we reached a place called Chek Jawa. i did some research on this place b4 i went..it says that there are corals, sea star, seagrasses..described it to be a very wonderful place. but..not a single coral or sea star in sight when i went there..haizz. What i saw the most was only mangroves and nutmegs..

We had a long walk around the coastal broadwalk. The scenery was very nice..especially from the 6-storey high view tower. It took me a lot of courage to reach to the top cos i'm super afraid of heights..It good to enjoy the nature. Each breath of fresh air..with all trees surrounding you, looking at the sea with such cooling wind whispering at your ear..i feel as if all my trouble were swept away:) i know i'm bad in describing it the way i felt..just get the idea of it :P

12+ we had our lunchie..my dear teacher bought each of us a packet of yummy nasi lemak. Other tourist who were in the hut were so envious of us..bcos they had nth to eat..too bad then~
After we ate to our hearts content, we took a stroll around the hut. We saw Pulau Sekudu..wanna know the story behind these 2 pulaus? one day, the elephant, pig n frog challenged one another to swim across the Straits. Those who failed will turn into a rock. All overestimated their capabilities..so, the elephant and pig turned into Pulau Ubin while the frog turned into this Pulau Sekudu...doesn't make sense right? tat's the point of all folklore..haha:)

We carried on our bicycle ride..it was not a smooth ride though..with humps n bumps..especially those steep slopes...all i had to do was to enjoy the ride..and help to paddle. but my dear fren had a hard time. nxt stop was the wildboar hut. We saw a wildboar kept in four walls..an old uncle took care of it. It was pretty interesting seeing it eating the food we gave..wanna know how it looks like? go to facebook n check it out!

at 4..we took the bumboat back to sg. how i wish to tell more stories bout my trip there..but, i tink..tat's all-.- all i've learned was..never to be there again!! hahaha..i love to enjoy the nature though:) Thank God for creating these beautiful creatures^^

--check out the pics i took in facebook--
thx:)

feelings of turning 19...

2009-09-20T17:50:00.003+08:00

a short post to tell my feelings of turning 19 tmr...i don wish to admit it..but its a fact =.= haha..though i dont look like 19 yo~~:P

another yr has passed. many things happen thruout the past year..i'm coming to the 2nd sem of year 2. i guess i did improve on my nursing skills and gained a lot of valuable knowledge:) let me share my happiest thing- i've grown much spiritually!!i believe so:) physically as well...of cos din put on weight much..but..maybe prettier??hahah..mentally..surely more matured^^
saddest thing is- i realise i've been a fool for the past 4 years..until recently i gave this relationship up..i felt so relieved..it can be a good news as well..hehe~

so how i feel?
i'm in the last year before becoming 20..no more 10+...T.T..a bit sad..but this shows that God blessed me thru these 18 years of my life..normal people will feel excited about their bday rite..same goes for me..but, i'm quite dissapointed this year..bcos maybe i wont be able to celebrate with my sec sch buddies..miss them so much~~
i don wish to celebrate with a large grp of people either..cos i know the attention will not be on me..i hv to be selfish on this big occassion for me..:P

most importantly--i would like to celebrate it with my dearest parents. i believe no one on this earth will love me as much as they do^^ thank them for raising me up to be who i am today!!
Thank God for transforming my life too~~

HapPy BirThdAy to me...i am 18 going on 19 :)

wednesday? tireday? funday?

2009-09-09T21:20:00.002+08:00

wow~~what a special day is it today!! 090909!!! those b'days who fall on this day will be a memorable one for them:) Happy birtHdAy to all 9th sept babies!!..and also all sept babies--which includes me^^

since its a special day..i cant let such a day go to waste by hiding myself at home. My cousin bro asked me to sing k with him bcos he's so desperate to sing..sing n sing..so, it's my first outing wif him for the past 18 years..it was a fun time though =.= hearing him screaming and yelling >< especially when he sang smooth criminal- MJ..OMG!! feel like running out of the room straight away..hahaha *he ruined the song* but i guess i did had a great time singing my lungs out for 3 hours just the 2 of us..

up next is G.I Joe:) meet my frens wif popcorns, drinks ready..i learn to appreciate such movie more after watching with them.as there will be added effects..haha:) rating 7/10 for me..no wonder one of my fren don mind watching it the 2nd time :P

the time is 7pm : time for dinner! we headed for tomyam soup:) i can say that it was yummy ^^ the word to describe it better is sHioK ahHH!! hahaha..too bad i din took a pic of my fren eating it..seems like he has eaten 10 bowls of it when i just eaten half bowl..he was sweating like mad....
great time of fellowship frens:)

wanna know what's up next...>>>HoMe sweet hOmE
so..its a wednesday 090909..and i feel so tired today but yet it was a fun day:)

--be happy--

wonder what i do during the holidays??

2009-09-08T20:10:00.007+08:00

my 2 weeks of holiday b4 my attachment of 1 month..kinda sad now bcos i left a few days more of holiday..
so what i've been up to the past few days?
hmm..first i baked these yummy cookies for my mum as belated b'day present *friends who tasted it said it was nice^^* my mum loves it too!!

finally had a chance to domy favourite hobby--which is baking ~ cookies especially..so i tried a few new recipes and it turned out pretty well ..hehe:P

other than baking..my hobby is watching MOviE :)
all types of movie are fine for me..except.....hOrroR movie..eeee~

i love animated ones the most..let me name a few of them-- a bug's life, mulan, shrek, n the recent ones are bolt & UP!! UP is so touching..how nice if my someone say this to me * you gave me an adventure of a lifetime* T.T today i watched alvin and chipmunks!! must be wondering why i'm only watching it now rite?? bcos i'm too busy to watch it when it's showing in cinema. so i watch it in pps.. they are so cute and funny..anyone missed them or their lovely voices? now here are the songs they sang~

hahaha..love these!!
it's one of the nicest movie^^ move with the groove ya!!

so..i guess tat's all of my updates..tmr will be a fun day!!
ciao~~

time to slow down.........

2009-07-14T13:43:00.002+08:00

it's the start of my 2nd term of 3rd sem..looking back at my past one year, everything in my life has been going on so fast..rushing thru projects, assignments etc made me feel so tired and stressed out. i often tire myself out until i scarcely find any time to rest..even skip meals or only eat bread for my 3 meals..i thought i can save time or money by doing that..but....i was wrong.

for the past one month..i had this gastric problem. The pain is quite unbearable..no appetite to eat..n lost a bit of weight.but it was not as serious as the one i had last few days.i started vommiting the next day after i missed my dinner the day before..i feel so terrible.my whole body just feel so weak and i sleep from 9am-7pm..in between of cos i'll wake up a while...aft a long sleep and few cup of hot milk..i felt much better.Thank God~~

i never expect skipping one meal will have such terrible effect..i think God is punishing me..i wont skip meals anymore..unless there's special reason..haha..so i decided to slow down the pace of my life..i donwan to make myself so tired..i'd rather slow down..think carefully before i do anything, look at the people and nature around me..it will make my life happier i guess:)

after my trip to redang by cruise, i saw how wide and beautifule the sea is..especially the scene of sunrise..i spend lots of time looking at the clouds which i neglect usually. there was this scene that caught my eyes..at first there were dark clouds blocking the sun when it was rising..i felt so dismayed bcos i wont get to see the sunrise..how i hope the wind will blow away those clouds so that the sun will appear...aft waiting a long time..i finally saw the dark clouds slowly moving away..white clouds appear behind the dark ones and guess what came up next??
yesss..the bright sun that shines so beautifully!!:)

i will miss many beautiful things in life if i dont start slowing down now...

new blog here~~

2009-06-16T20:20:00.003+08:00

hey everyone..!!!
welcome to my new blog..my one at msn is still available..but many of my frens wan to link me to their blogger so i create one..^^

i'm currently having attachment in KKH (Kandang Kerbau Hospital, Women's n children's). for 2 weeks, i'll be taking care of babies..small kids and teens...i can say that it's the most boring attachment..n yet a fun one..haha..

wanna know wad i do most of the time there??
-watch tv (cartoon network) *tom n jerry*
-play wif kids (toy cars, balloons)
-pacifying kids who refuse to eat (hv to keep on saying "ur such a gud boy!!eat ur food n i'll give u sweets")

it's not so stressful..as compared to the previous busy routine..

this is the life of a pediatric student nurse~

hope i hv time to visit here often..